Monday, October 15, 2007 ; 11:16 AM♥
Because of you...
Feel like writing a post but do not know where to start from. many tots bothered me the nitex, and surprisingly i woke up immediately to the alarm this morning without lazing on the bed taking my own sweet time, its of the the rare mornings i did wake up right immediately the alarm rang.obviously i din slp very well.i woke up found mummy and bro are at home surprisingly.perhaps i wun be loney at home today then. Chatted with henghui and shuoke last nitex, apparently our relationship with our partners are not looking good. felt that shuoke has been such a tolerant and patient gf towards her guy. i simply adores her for that. I can nv be magnanimous towards certain things afterall, i failed once, i tried twice but failed in the end. Theres many things I dun understand, many doubts I'm having, many torments I've been trying to overcome and accept it. The assurance and promises always bring me sky-high at one moment and the next moment utter disappointment is on its way heading to me, it feels like I have been on a roller-coaster ride. When the ride ends, nothing materialise afterall.I have decided to withdraw after attempting again and again but failed.It's a learning process for me and he taught me many things afterall.i wish i could wake up tml morning forgetting about it, forgetting about him, forgetting about everything that happened, forgetting what he had said before so that i wouldnt have to feel so sore about it.i wish i can...im so freaking hungry now while waiting for mummy to be done with her cooking.Beginnings are scary. Endings are usually sad, but it's the middle that counts the most.(=
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